feb 16th

first off: happy birthday brian chen! :)

so today i got to see bryan chang and he drove himself! :O finally. lmao why couldn't he drive when we were going out?! lmao just joking :) but it was really really nice to see him again. and yay! we are friends again. it's always strange how me and him work... it never fails to confuse me and at times, hurt my heart.

buutttt anyways, the surprise party for brian's bday wasn't really surprise-ful but whatever, i tried you know? im not his best friend or close friend at that, but i just wanted him to have a happy birthday with his friends, cuz he told me before he didnt really celebrate his birthday much. anddd we tried to surprise jon chik too.. duno if that worked out >_>'' but yea.
one thing im glad is that during dinner, it wasn't awkward between bear and i. we didn really talk much at all, but if we did speak, we did our best to make it friendly :) yay to that.

then we went to pool, and shit happend and my mood went BLEH.. like i wanted to smoke, drink.. iunno talk to someone, i just wanted to do something to get myself away from feeling lke this. i ended up calling bryan le, but he was busy at ken's house and he said he would find me later. when we were leaving, he still wasn't here so i just called him and told him not to come.. which makes sense you know? then after dropping roni and ingrid off, i drove around aimlessly for a good .. 10 minutes? ROFL. iuno. but yea, i didnt want to go home, but i had nowhere else to go. which was kinda stupid of me, cuz i was just completely wasting gas. i got home feeling like shit, and then bryan calls me and haha, he was outside my house. he came in and we talked for a bit. honestly... i love my friends some times, he was worried and he drove all the way to see me. i really love that and for that i'm truly thankful to know someone cares about me to drop what their doing to see if i'm okay. that's what a true friend is. so thank you bryan :) you will always forever be one of my closest friends! brulk and vivzilla FTW! haha. i feel much better now, and im very sleepy and tired >3< sooo imma snooze! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz