dirt-stained

somehow it seems like im being swallowed up. im super sensitive to what people say to me. my emotions are uncontrollable. i feel so desperate and needy its making me annoyed and upset at my own self. these lungs of mine are already dirt-stained just like my stupid life. i dont know what's wrong with me anymore. i'm confusing myself. i'm not happy anymore. i really don't like what i've done.. too many stupid spontaneous decisions. i want to go bak to loo asap. at least i can distract myself there with school work and other things. save me..